wind

during the last few days, I have been told TWICE that I am like the wind.

mmh.

I am free

(but even the wind is catchable)

pendientes

A lo largo de los años, he dejado muchas cosas pendientes:
Libros por leer
Novelas o artículos por escribir
Obras de arte por pintar
Estantes por acomodar
Ropa por regalar
Canciones por grabar
Películas por ver
Ejercicios y dietas por comenzar
(y por alguna vez terminar)
Historias por contar
Discusiones por terminar
Perdones por pedir
Disculpas por ofrecer
Ofensas por olvidar
(Des)amores por sanar
Asuntos mentales por ordenar...

Más vale que me vaya apurando!

what comes first?

"An Oxford degree prepares you only for an unreal life"- Jonathan Aitken




or, is it perhaps..

that

living an unreal life drives us to Oxford?

- me.

yo no se...

"I´m washing my hands of this weirdness"

- Jack Sparrow

the house is on fire!!

HAPPY 26 TO ME!

wishin´ and hopin´

That's fine

That's good

That's nice

I understand the price

The cost of craving dark instead of light

I'd flip a coin to see if you still care tonight

- Untitled, Rachael Yamagata.

adaptation

Im a man who doesnt know

How to sell a contradiction

You come and go

You come and go

Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon

(Culture Club)

y Neruda responde (once again)

MUERE LENTAMENTE

Muere lentamente quien se transforma en esclavo del hábito, repitiendo todos los días los mismos trayectos, quien no cambia de marca, no arriesga vestir un color nuevo y no le habla a quien no conoce.

Muere lentamente quien evita una pasión, quien prefiere el negro sobre blanco y los puntos sobre las "íes" a un remolino de emociones, justamente las que rescatan el brillo de los ojos, sonrisas de los bostezos, corazones a los tropiezos y sentimientos.

Muere lentamente quien no voltea la mesa cuando está infeliz en el trabajo, quien no arriesga lo cierto por lo incierto para ir detrás de un sueño, quien no se permite por lo menos una vez en la vida, huir de los consejos sensatos.

Muere lentamente quien no viaja, quien no lee, quien no oye música, quien no encuentra gracia en sí mismo.

Muere lentamente quien destruye su amor propio, quien no se deja ayudar.

Muere lentamente, quien pasa los días quejándose de su mala suerte o de la lluvia incesante.

Muere lentamente, quien abandona un proyecto antes de iniciarlo, no preguntando de un asunto que desconoce o no respondiendo cuando le indagan sobre algo que sabe.

Evitemos la muerte en suaves cuotas, recordando siempre que estar vivo exige un esfuerzo mucho mayor que el simple hecho de respirar.

Solamente la ardiente paciencia hará que conquistemos una espléndida felicidad.

Pablo Neruda


She who becomes the slave of habit, who follows the same routes every day, who never changes pace, who does not risk and change the color of his clothes, who does not speak and does not experience, dies slowly.

She who shuns passion, who prefers black on white, dotting ones "i's" rather than a bundle of emotions, the kind that make your eyes glimmer, that turn a yawn into a smile, that make the heart pound in the face of mistakes and feelings, dies slowly.

She who does not turn things topsy-turvy, who is unhappy at work, who does not risk certainty for uncertainty, to thus follow a dream, those who do not forego sound advice at least once in their lives, die slowly.

She who does not travel, who does not read, who does not listen to music, who does not find grace in himself, she who does not find grace in herself, dies slowly.

She who slowly destroys his own self-esteem, who does not allow himself to be helped, who spends days on end complaining about his own bad luck, about the rain that never stops, dies slowly.

He or she who abandon a project before starting it, who fail to ask questions on subjects he doesn't know, he or she who don't reply when they are asked something they do know, die slowly.

Let's try and avoid death in small doses, reminding oneself that being alive requires an effort far greater than the simple fact of breathing. Only a burning patience will lead to the attainment of a splendid happiness.

Pablo Neruda

my decision

It's only natural to feel like you're sinking

It's only human to be so unprepared

So where else can you go to

'Cause no one's given you the book

About what to say and how to feel and what you

Should and shouldn't have took

(Robbie Williams, Get a Little High)

cerrado por derribo

conozco un corazón

que -como diría Sabina - está cerrado por derribo

(y porque anda embrollado en otros asuntos)

roble? limonero?

uno sabe bien a qué arbol se arrima...

hey laura

And any time you feel the pain,

hey,

Jude,

refrain

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders

candles

estoy encendiendo velitas

por aquí

y por allá

(en todos los sentidos)

Information Asymmetry

what could I do, given that I do not have all the information?

a) take the most reasonable decision

b) follow my heart

c) listen to others´opinion

d) nothing

a tramp or a tramp?

She gets too hungry, for dinner at eight
She loves the theater, but doesn´t come late
She´d never bother, with people she´d hate
That´s why the lady is a tramp

Doesn´t like crap games, with barons and earls

Won´t go to harlem, in ermine and pearls

Won´t dish the dirt, with the rest of those girls

That´s why the lady is a tramp

She loves the free, fresh wind in her hair

Life without care

Shes broke, but it´s ok

(Frank Sinatra)

I´M A TRAMP!!

Tramp, The social elite lifestyle magazine, which is aimed at the jetset and trendy social elite.

Tramp, a vagrant in British English.

Wikipedia.

Fundraising for Africa

Today, my post is not about me; it is about someone else doing a wonderful job. It is about him, about you, about us, about humanity.

www.carsten-korfmacher.com

el justo momento

no cabe duda que todo tiene su tiempo y su espacio.

tal vez solamente es cuestión de esperar.

china in your hand

It was a flight on the wings Of a young girl´s dreams That flew too far away

Don't push too far
Your Dreams are China in your hand
Don't wish too hard
Because they may come true
And you can't help them

You don't know what you might

Have set upon yourself

China in your hand

(T´Pau)

un dulce

24 Abril 2007: Otra fecha para recordar.

Es como comer un dulce, donde solamente uno puede disfrutar de su sabor y realmente saber lo que se siente.... mmmmh....

self-esteem

Hello. Did you miss me?

I know I'm hard to resist

(Robbie Williams, The World´s Most Handsome Man)

count your blessings

* Podré no caminar, pero tengo brazos con los cuales apoyarme y otra pierna que me mueve.
* Podré no ir a tomar un vaso de agua, pero tengo una familia que me ayuda en todo.
* Podré no ir a trabajar, pero tengo colegas increíbles que se acuerdan de mí y me alientan a seguir adelante.
* Podré no andar de socialito de allá pa´cá, pero tengo amigos fantásticos, amigos reales, quienes no necesitan que yo diga más palabras para expresar lo que siento.

y muchas muchas cosas más! :)

reading my dream

last night I had a very special dream (you know I love the "dream world"). I was driving my Nissan Micra, and I saw the signs stating that the road was closed... I saw all the other drivers going through the diversion, but I was very very stubborn and decided to continue, thinking "I know the way, it should be open". So I kept driving, until I got stuck... the pavement was kind of muddy and "asfaltoso", sticky and yukky and I could not go on. There were some construction workers who looked at me and thought: silly girl. So, I decided to get off my car and walked... however, I go all dirty and dusty so I decided to go back to my car. On my way back I had the chance to listen to some other people passing in a pickup truck, saying "look at this car, who left it over there? it must be a poshy stupid girl...". I said nothing, got on my car and drove back.

And I woke up.

I think I do not have to provide explanations for this.


oops.

speed limit

Radiohead understood the sense and the irony of rushing out. "Sometimes I get overcharged, that's when you see sparks.They ask me where the hell I'm going? At a 1000 feet per second, hey man, slow down, slow down, idiot, slow down, slow down."

Maybe the universe told me to slow down...

serán 8 largas semanas.

mala racha

I have what we call a "mala racha": a series of unfortunate events... 2 days ago, I got involved in a car crash.. my poor micra got destroyed :( sigh... but luckily nothing happened to me at all!!

HOWEVER

last night, as silly as it sounds.. I slipped and broke a leg!!! I have a cast and everything. ouch.with no car, and no functioning leg, I will have to rest for 6-8 weeks (and I had to pay around 500GBP- a hell of amount of money in Mexico in total for the car and my leg).

poor me, flowers and chocolates accepted.

universo

Casi no he leído a Paulo Coelho, lo admito. Pero hago honor a una de sus más renombradas frases,

"Cuando una persona desea realmente algo, el Universo entero conspira para que pueda realizar su sueño. Basta con aprender a escuchar los dictados del corazón y a descifrar un lenguaje que esta más allá de las palabras, el que muestra aquello que los ojos no pueden ver".

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it..."

"Quando você quer alguma coisa, todo o Universo conspira para que você realize o seu desejo."

let it flow!

agua que no has de beber, déjala correr

on vacation

mi cerebro se declara en vacaciones.

CERRADO HASTA NUEVO AVISO

my tiny personal paradise

I have heard more than once that we build our own happiness. Today, I (finally) started building mine, my own personal paradise. I started discovering the joy in tiny little details; I had my personal Oxford-life... I am by myself, did my life in my own personal rythm, bought one-portion groceries, which implied (a) buying MY kind of groceries, (b) not using a kart but a basket, (c) carrying the bags by myself. Of course, there are some differences like having to drive more than 30 min in order to get to my job, and being stuck in the traffic, and co-existing with 4 million people and not with 17,000 gown, and having a warm weather and not a cloudy gray rainy sky (which I´d rather have).

Anyway, the landscape and the background might change, but I have finally found those details that make me happy. I think I am finally filing the borders of the life I am building.

I am in Love!

... with this thing called "LIFE".

belanova mix

ESTA ES LA HISTORIA DE UN (DES)AMOR, EN PALABRAS DE BELANOVA:

(12/06)
Camino por la ciudad
Mirando al cielo
La lluvia me hace pensar
Que tú estás lejos
La gente viene y va
Yo me congelo
Sólo para aterrizar
En tu recuerdo

La gente viene y va
Yo sólo espero
Justo en el mismo lugar
A tu recuerdo
(me pregunto)

(02/07)

Niño es hora de partir

la vida me invitó

hacia otro lugar

sin ti

La vida tiene algo para ti

me duele no ser yo

lo siento niño debo de partir

(niño)

(03/07)

Y dónde quedó
ese botón
que lleva a la felicidad
luna de miel, rosa pastel
clichés y tonterías

(rosa pastel)

men and women (y la planta)

Él dice: "esa planta se va a mover"

y uno ahí (como boba) esperando a que la planta se mueva

(lección aprendida gracias a Charly)

spider-lesson

Today, I arrived home and turned the TV on.
There was spiderman.-the movie, being shown. (my memory is weird, I store interesting episodes: I saw it for the first time on 31 May 2002, in the Warner Theatre in Nottingham, sigh).

Anyway,

I caught a good phrase:

"These are the years when a man changes into the man he’s going to be for the rest of your life. Just be careful who you change into." - Uncle Fulano to Spiderman.

once again, WHAT AM I DOING?

(the good news is... I feel fine, I feel GREAT with what I am doing :) )

past - present - future

Lately, I have been reflecting on the concept of time.

how do we understand time?

Dónde queda lo que hemos vivido? Are past experiences just a bunch of memories? How - if they - persist and impact our lives?

We plan ahead, we know what we will be doing tomorrow, next month, or next year maybe. We have set dates and times and schedules... However, we only experience the right here and right now (perhaps directing our present towards the future we have planned).

Newton said: Absolute, true, and mathematical time, in and of itself and of its own nature, without reference to anything external, flows uniformly and by another name is called duration. Relative, apparent, and common time is any sensible and external measure (precise or imprecise) of duration by means of motion; such a measure—for example, an hour, a day, a month, a year—is commonly used instead of true time.

The Bible:

There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven–A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace.
—Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8.

U2:

Is there a time for keeping a distance A time to turn your eyes away Is there a time for keeping your head down For getting on with your day Is there a time for kohl and lipstick A time for cutting hair Is there a time for high street shopping To find the right dress to wear Here she comes Heads turn around Here she comes To take her crown Is there a time to walk for cover A time for kiss and tell Is there a time for different colors Different names you find it hard to spell Is there a time for first communion A time for east 17 Is there a time to turn the mecca Is there a time to be a beauty queen. Is there a time for tying ribbons A time for Christmas trees Is there a time for laying tables When the night is set to freeze. - Miss Sarajevo.

reality show?

Ayer me quedé impactada (como la mayoría de quienes vimos las noticias por ahí de las 7:30am). Un hombre esposado, tirado en la calle, los paramédicos no llegaban, los policías rondaban, los reporteros describían la situación y se atrevieron (con todo respeto a mis colegas comunicadores, pero se pasaron de lanza) a preguntarle al señor quien estaba al parecer inconsciente y llegó a convulsionar "¿qué pasó señor, nos puede platicar qué fue lo que sucedió?".

Más de 30 minutos en televisión, donde no veíamos más que al pobre señor tirado en la calle, golpeado y esposado.

Reflexiono, ¿son estos los nuevos reality shows? ¿ya tan acostumbrados estamos a ver asesinatos, balaceras, secuestros y crímenes "in real time"? ¿Hacia Dónde Vamos?

¡¿HACIA DÓNDE VAMOS?!

music and lyrics

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need `em again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

con tanta noticia

'Sólo le pido a Dios
que la guerra no me sea indiferente´
( Leon Gieco, "Solo le pido a Dios")

2 cumpleaños

14 y 15 de Marzo: dos cumpleaños que vale la pena celebrar!!!

¡FELICIDADES!

(y gracias!)

el carrito

Vengo a decirle al que no me supo amar

que chin*e a su madre

ya lo voy a abandonar

Lo eché en un carrito

que lo fueran a tirar

lejos muy lejos

donde no vaya a apestar

(para nadie en especial, Los Cadetes)

episodios urbanos

de regreso del trabajo a mi casa, un poco fastidiada y cansada, entre el rush de la ciudad, en el rojo de un semáforo, vi una escena de esas que pocas veces en la vida tenemos oportunidad de presenciar:

una chavita iba con su hermanito de unos 2-3 años en la calle, estaban pidiendo dinero o algo así. en eso, alguien desde un automóvil blanco no tan elegante pero sí "bien" les dice que se acerquen y alcanzo a ver que les dice algo... la chava levanta a su hermanito y la persona en el automóvil lo toma y le besa la frente.

se me hizo pequeño el corazón.

la chava y el niño sonrieron y siguieron su camino entre los coches. el semáforo había cambiado a verde, pero nadié se atrevió a sonar el cláxon o desesperarse por no avanzar.

la duda sobre qué había pasado o quién era esa persona me carcomía, por lo cual aceleré y alcancé a ver los tripulantes de dicho auto: una pareja adulta, él conducía y ella iba de copiloto. esa señora era quien había besado a un niño de la calle.

son muchas las reflexiones que surgen, pero me queda una gran interrogante:

¿Yo haría eso?

windy March

y yo se que tienes miedo y no es un buen momento para ti (y para mí) y para esto que nos viene sucediendo, pero eres para mí, me lo ha dicho el viento, eres para mí, lo oigo todo el tiempo,

eres para mí.

(lyrics by Julieta Venegas, image by http://anhdres.com/)

Nebo Londona

...And all the roads that lead us there were winding

(post gracias a Zemfira y Oasis)

una a una,

I am setting the pieces back together

today´s (and life) lesson

I will cross the bridge as it comes along

Pride and Prejudice

Muchas veces, solamente hace falta una mirada para decirlo todo.

doors

¿Cuáles puertas se cierran

y cuáles se abren?

hay que recordar

que uno propone y Dios dispone

LIFE IS GREAT!

(es todo lo que tengo que decir)

14 feb

la pregunta de los $64,000

Todo mundo me ha preguntado lo mismo: ¿POR QUÉ VINISTE?

Mi respuesta es:

Muere quien no arriesga lo cierto por lo incierto para ir detrás de un sueño. - Neruda.

prajnaparamita

Today I learnt a new word:

prajnaparamita: (The name of) a group of ancient Mahayana Buddhist texts on the perfection of wisdom (freq. attrib.); one of the teachings contained within them. Also occas.: one of these texts. OED.

I can get into the OED again! yeyyy! It´s great to be back :)

fuenteovejuna

ya se en quién se inspiró Lope de Vega cuando escribió FuenteOvejuna

qué emoción qué emoción qué emoción qué emoción!

I´m so excited and I just can´t hide it!!!
(The Pointer Sisters)

al taller

¿dónde puedo obtener unas afinaciones menores?

what is happyness?

You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period.

Christopher Gardner.

I am pursuing my Happyness!!

I´ll go and get it! ACTION!

going back

I´m wishing for the best, but expecting the worst.
(so I don´t get heartbroken)

Si la Montaña No Viene a Mahoma...

ACCION!
La semana pasada estuve reflexionando sobre todo lo que he estado ESPERANDO.
(esperando a que me paguen, esperando a conseguir trabajo, esperando recibir noticias, esperando encontar el amor de mi vida, esperando que alguien me saque de esta depresión, esperando que suceda algo emocionante en mi vida...)

Ha llegado el momento de ACTUAR.

comencé poco a poco.
1. salí a correr!!! por fin decidí volver a hacer ejercicio!
2. socialicé mucho más! salí, conocí gente, platiqué,
3. me compre un nuevo par de lentes! (super bonitos)
4.

ta ta ta taaaaa (preámbulo musical)

COMPRE UN BOLETO PARA IR A OXFORD!!!

No puedo pasar mi vida "esperando" que las cosas pasen. Ya voy!!! (ES LO QUE NECESITO! ME URGE!)

yeyyyyy

ACCIÓN!